It's not me... it's not me... get a better me...

11.02.2005

lebaran

sekarang malem takbiran !!!
gema takbir membahana dimana-mana !!!

sebenarnya hati ini seharusnya senang,
sebenarnya senyum ini seharusnya mengembang...

tetapi,
tidak...

karena,
hati ini tidak bisa berbohong..
karena,
senyum ini tidak bisa dipaksakan...

tidak terbayang akan betapa bahagianya hati ini,
tidak terbayang akan betapa lebarnya senyum ini...

jikalau,
andai saja...

aku bisa berada di depanmu,
berikan bunga itu,
dan berkata...

selamat hari raya idul fitri, cahayaku...

maafkan aku...

8.31.2005

emosi

emosi,
susah banget ngurangin emosi ini...

emosi,
menyusahkan sekali emosi ini...

emosi,
begitu banyak kesusahan yang ditimbulkan oleh emosi ini...

8.15.2005

it's just a matter of how bold is our blood !!!

huh...

ngapain juga mundur duluan?
berjuang dulu donk, cari solusi dulu donk !!!

masa iya,
belum apa2 dah gak berani maju?
masa iya, dah ketakutan ama kemungkinan yang sebenarnya kecil terjadi ??

huh...

7.26.2005

berkelebat lagi

kembali berkelebat,
kembali terngiang...

beberapa hari ini, dirimu kembali menghampiri hatiku...
kenapa?
ada apa?

beberapa hari ini, dirimu kembali memenuhi hatiku...
kenapa?
ada apa?

aku tidak cukup berani membuka kembali jalur itu,
aku tidak cukup kuat membuka kembali jalan itu...

tapi... dirimu hadir kembali...
menyeruak kembali...

maafkan aku... aku lagi-lagi terlalu lemah untuk berjalan sendirian...
maafkan aku... aku lagi-lagi tidak cukup kuat untuk meninggalkanmu...

beberapa hari ini, dirmu kembali hadir... begitu kuat, begitu kuat...

aku hanya bisa berharap, ini bukanlah petanda buruk bagimu...
aku hanya bisa berdoa, bahwa ini hanya pesan bahwa kamu sudah bahagia disana...

senyumlah selalu... cahayaku...

7.20.2005

hanya ingin menulis

tidak ada kesan apa-apa
perasaan ini semakin menghilang
perasaan ini mungkin terus memudar

tidak ada kesan apa-apa
mungkin hanya kenangan indah terpatri di hati
kenangan yang selalu berkelebat di benak

apa kabarmu disana?
sudah menemukan kebahagiaanmu kah?

aku disini selalu mendoakanmu
walau mungkin memang dunia tidak berbaik hati kepada kita

bahagialah selalu cahayaku

7.14.2005

10 hari...

10 hari berlalu...
10 hari berlalu...

baru 10 hari...

tetapi,
sepertinya 10 hari ini hanya awal dari 10 hari-10 hari berikutnya...

semoga kamu terus baik2 saja disana...

7.04.2005

this is it...

This is it,

The moment has come... My days here, this very peaceful place, has finally ended.

Forgive me for so many mistakes I've done, I'll try to do my best...
Forgive me for so many projects I've messed, I'm still learning...
Forgive me for so many rush works I've forced, hey... I was forced too... :)
Forgive me for so many troubles I've caused, can't help my self...
Forgive me for so many inappropriate behaviours I've acted, I'm still growing...
Forgive me for so many stupidity I've shown, I'm sure there are so many... :)
Forgive me for so many lousy jokes I've thrown, that's why I failed in API... long live Bajay !!
Forgive me for so many "unwanted songs" I've played, trust me... Someday you will learn that Josh Groban is not bad... not bad at all... :)
Well... forgive me for so many bad things happened because of me... hope there are not so many... I hope... :)

And, from a very deep of my heart,
Thanks to you all for so many great times,
Thanks to you all for so many lovely moments,
Thanks to you all for so many priceless experiences,
Thanks to you all for so many useful knowledges,
Thanks to you all for so many mature advices,
Thanks to you all for so many deep sharings.
Thanks to you all for so many cheerful stories,
Thanks to you all for so many delicious foods,
Thanks to you all for so many excitements,
Thanks to you all for so many smiles,
Thanks to you all for so many laughs,
Thanks to you all for being my friends, nice friends,
Thanks to you all for all... for all... absolutely for all...

It's not easy for me to leave this very cozy comfort zone,
It's not easy to find a very friendly environment like this...

But, decision have to made,
I have to take a look around, and meet another challenge,
with all heavy consequences follow it.

This is not a goodbye,
This is just a transitional phase, that I will no longer be in the synovate working life.
This is just a transitional gate, that we will have more than just a work-related relationship.

So... with all due respect,
Please keep me in your touch list, and I'm sure I will put all of you in mine...
Keep inform me for any marriage happenings, and I'm sure I'll inform you about mine...
Keep inform me for any babies born, eventough it's still a long way to come, but I'm sure I'll inform you about mine...
Keep inform me for any "graduation", I already inform you about "mine"... :)

My hands lay to heaven, my prayers are arising...
Wish you all the clear shine career,
Wish you all the bright future,
WIsh you all the smooth road,
Wish you all the best life...

Some things to emphasize most,
Keep smiling,
Keep smiling,
Keep smiling... and keep smiling...

Also,
Keep supporting LIVERPOOL FOOTBALL CLUB...
Remember, we're the champions league title holder guys, champions league title holder !!

After all,
Walk On... Walk On... With Hope In Your Heart...
and... You'll Never Walk Alone... You'll Never Walk Alone...

Bye all,
Cheers... Cheers...

memoriku...

pheeeeewww,
berat meninggalkan memori disini...
memori indah, tidak akan terlupakan...
memori indah tentang dirimu...

berat meninggalkan memori disini...
terutama karena aku harus pergi tanpa diiringi senyummu...

maafkan aku, memoriku...

bahagiakan hidupmu, memoriku...

senangkan dirimu, memoriku...

tenangkan pikiranmu, memoriku

maafkan aku, memoriku...